Wow everyone. It's march! well, actually it's been 5 days already but nevermind. How time flies eh? And yesterday I was standing at the balcony, staring at the fireworks, solemnly beseeching for an awesome year 2008. Hah! nothing happened. why god why?
" It's weird and funny how the days feel so long but the months just seem to fly on by. " ~ Kenn
Couldn't agree more. Say perhaps exams. During add math, you thought you were real quick, but then time ran out before you can say wtF. But during Chinese, I was stoning there, looking at my bottle and let my imagination run free, while the clock ticks. B)
How you sleep for 12 hours in a blink of an eye. And that it was just like yesterday it was chinese new year. Don't remind me, and I think I"m 14. On the contrary, how double period of Bio seems like years or how when you're in hurry, waiting for the bus seeems like eternity. We always try our best to grow up, as fast as possible, as quick as it could be, but when we're all grown up, we yearn for alll those childhood fun times. We can always hear people saying how they wish they were [fill in your own number] years old.
I wonder, I'm 16 years old already. And that's a wow. What have I done? nothing! Why do I stay in this place, living my life like everyone does, continue this routine I take year after year?
If you say life is like a road, I'll tell you that I kept walking and walking, for 16 years, I kept walking non-stop. But no one ever tells me why am I walking, where should I go, what will I be, where will I stop, where my final destination would be. Do you get it?! Why am I living in this world. What do I really want to do?
Will I die 60 years later, lying in the bed, still thinking about what am I going to do with myself. Or maybe already thought of what to do, but die doing nothing. We are so small, so unimportant, so tiny and so irrelevent to the universe. What's our purpose, what's our destiny?
" It's weird and funny how the days feel so long but the months just seem to fly on by. " ~ Kenn
Couldn't agree more. Say perhaps exams. During add math, you thought you were real quick, but then time ran out before you can say wtF. But during Chinese, I was stoning there, looking at my bottle and let my imagination run free, while the clock ticks. B)
How you sleep for 12 hours in a blink of an eye. And that it was just like yesterday it was chinese new year. Don't remind me, and I think I"m 14. On the contrary, how double period of Bio seems like years or how when you're in hurry, waiting for the bus seeems like eternity. We always try our best to grow up, as fast as possible, as quick as it could be, but when we're all grown up, we yearn for alll those childhood fun times. We can always hear people saying how they wish they were [fill in your own number] years old.
I wonder, I'm 16 years old already. And that's a wow. What have I done? nothing! Why do I stay in this place, living my life like everyone does, continue this routine I take year after year?
If you say life is like a road, I'll tell you that I kept walking and walking, for 16 years, I kept walking non-stop. But no one ever tells me why am I walking, where should I go, what will I be, where will I stop, where my final destination would be. Do you get it?! Why am I living in this world. What do I really want to do?
Will I die 60 years later, lying in the bed, still thinking about what am I going to do with myself. Or maybe already thought of what to do, but die doing nothing. We are so small, so unimportant, so tiny and so irrelevent to the universe. What's our purpose, what's our destiny?
My mama is 49 years old this year. She told me that if she can live until 60, her life, is countdown-ing. That is just a macabre thought.If death is to come one day, what's the point of living? Shall we not do whatever we like, act anyhow we like. Because no matter what you do, you'll end up in a coffin right? Might as well try everything in this world, try to jump from my house on the 16th floor. Try to smoke 20 packs of Dunhill aday. Try to witness a murder. Whatsoever. Try the exitement of robbing a bank. hahas.
We are studying so hard now. (screw exams) so what? Kenn says for a brighter future, a good job maybe. Then? wow. u work, u live u eat u shit. You get married, You make and have babies. Then you have to work for your babies. And then you grow old. Then you grow sick. Then u kena sent to pusat penjagaan warga tua (: and then you die?! aha. isn't that how people's life are? 
If we are going to die anyway. Nothing matters right? You don't need any friends, we don't need no one, we just wait for time to pass right? cause no matter what you do it won't matter. right?!
Sometimes I think of suicide. Why? Cause nothing matters. Nothing. When you die everything will come back to nothing. I scare myself sometimes.
If we are going to die anyway. Nothing matters right? You don't need any friends, we don't need no one, we just wait for time to pass right? cause no matter what you do it won't matter. right?!Sometimes I think of suicide. Why? Cause nothing matters. Nothing. When you die everything will come back to nothing. I scare myself sometimes.
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