You’re a part of me, indelible and irreversible

Underneath this facade, I still tremble. I take shaky breaths, I resist resist resist, I do not want you to know what I deeply feel inside. Or maybe I should.

My god, the juniors damn bad, Installation stuff don’t tell then don’t tell lah, hint a bit on the left, hint a bit on the right, you know the sentence SUSPENSE CAN KILL ah? You guys are seriously going to murder me.

Eh, got people say nowadays I damn boring wor, blog lai blog qu also blog about Choir =/ But I love Choir leh, bear with me for a few more weeks lah, Ok? Ok? OK! Good (:

Today was join meeting of Choir Committees 08/09 and 09/10, since Yoon Leen’s sick at home, I hosted the meeting. It was just roll call, and telling them what  their duties are. I just came back from Miaw Fen’s blog, what she wrote touched me deeply, the things she said, well, I couldn’t agree more.

Here’s what I wrote after MCE,

“I know I did lose my temper at some points, and panicked at the other. Sorry, heh. But I'm happy I tried. I'm a very self-centered and selfish person, but I told myself to be what I'm not for these two days. I did things for my juniors, things that my seniors did for me when I was a junior. And I realise it's not easy at all, to think of others before yourself, to forgive their imperfections like how they forgive yours, to solve their problems and manage to lift spirits when inside you're so anxious you want to puke the breakfast you ate.

Watching all these bright young faces, I remember how I use to be like them. Our age differs only by a few years, but I'm able to stand in front because I've gone through what they're going through right now, and when I stand in front, all I want to do is love and protect. I want to be someone they can lean on, because I leaned on my seniors too. And hopefully, I provided a place for their heart to rest. I was lucky enough to have seniors to guide me home.”

True happiness is found in giving, I gave Choir a lot, maybe you see it, maybe you don’t. Or maybe to you it is nothing but a little, but it is all that I can afford. So I am happy, and I love you, I love you guys.