CHS CHOIR in red and HARMONIX JUNIOR YOUTH CHOIR(DJ) in purpleThe results is not what's important (although I'm very happy with the results :D), it's what everyone learnt throughout the competition and festival that's important. Of everyone being together, putting heart and effort for the same dream, the same beliefs we share. I'm very proud of everyone.
I know I did lose my temper at some points, and panicked at the other. Sorry, heh. But I'm happy I tried. I'm a very self-centered and selfish person, but I told myself to be what I'm not for these two days. I did things that my seniors did for me when I was a junior. And I realise it's not easy at all, to think of others before yourself, to forgive their imperfections like how they forgive yours, to solve their problems and manage to lift spirits when inside you're so anxious you want to puke the breakfast you ate.
Watching all these bright young faces, I remember how I use to be like them. Our age differs only by a few years, but I'm able to stand in front because I've gone through what they're going throught right now, and when I stand in front, all I want to do is love and protect. I want to be someone they can lean on, because I leaned on my seniors too. And hopefully, I provided a place for their heart to rest. I was lucky enough to have seniors to guide me home.
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Sitting beside the two girls you share so much history with, and to have them lay their heads on your shoulder, resting peacefully, is one emotional moment for me. I no longer spend time wondering why so much bad had happened or what I have to do to tell them what's inside me or how our relationship is going to be in the future. All I have to do is to, follow my heart, and trust that they will pull me back when I drift down the wrong lane. I know I'm forgiven, at least a little more than before. I watched them breathe and I teared, careful not to let them flow down my cheeks, because the guilt I've been living with was lifted a little. I not only did things for them, I'm doing myself a favor also. I never told them that one sentence that made a difference, that one thing that someone said. "This is your last year, your last chance, don't leave with empty memories and worse, bad ones. 3 of you are suppose to connect and love each other more than anyone else."
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So, thank you everyone for letting me grow and improve. By the end of the day, we're more than a club, more than friends, we're a family.
p/s: period's over. Bye bye mood swings, hello holidays! (:
I know I did lose my temper at some points, and panicked at the other. Sorry, heh. But I'm happy I tried. I'm a very self-centered and selfish person, but I told myself to be what I'm not for these two days. I did things that my seniors did for me when I was a junior. And I realise it's not easy at all, to think of others before yourself, to forgive their imperfections like how they forgive yours, to solve their problems and manage to lift spirits when inside you're so anxious you want to puke the breakfast you ate.
Watching all these bright young faces, I remember how I use to be like them. Our age differs only by a few years, but I'm able to stand in front because I've gone through what they're going throught right now, and when I stand in front, all I want to do is love and protect. I want to be someone they can lean on, because I leaned on my seniors too. And hopefully, I provided a place for their heart to rest. I was lucky enough to have seniors to guide me home.
***
Sitting beside the two girls you share so much history with, and to have them lay their heads on your shoulder, resting peacefully, is one emotional moment for me. I no longer spend time wondering why so much bad had happened or what I have to do to tell them what's inside me or how our relationship is going to be in the future. All I have to do is to, follow my heart, and trust that they will pull me back when I drift down the wrong lane. I know I'm forgiven, at least a little more than before. I watched them breathe and I teared, careful not to let them flow down my cheeks, because the guilt I've been living with was lifted a little. I not only did things for them, I'm doing myself a favor also. I never told them that one sentence that made a difference, that one thing that someone said. "This is your last year, your last chance, don't leave with empty memories and worse, bad ones. 3 of you are suppose to connect and love each other more than anyone else."
***
So, thank you everyone for letting me grow and improve. By the end of the day, we're more than a club, more than friends, we're a family.
p/s: period's over. Bye bye mood swings, hello holidays! (:
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