adieu auf wiedersehen goodbye

Merry Christmas To You

Still I say, listen, to The Christmas Song by Nat King Cole.

This is going to be my last post for a very long time, prolly mid of January or so. So don't come back after this.

This year's Christmas is filled with emotions.

I had a small fight with a certain someone, that dampened my spirits a little, but I couldn't pick up the strength to polish things, I am so tired from pleasing people, seriously. I love you so much lah, but I am very strained from making you happy my dear. You are not always rigth you know.

And then someone couldn't spend Christmas with me, that dampened my spirits a little too, but then it's ok, it's not like I'll die from it. Anyway, worse come worse, like what the friend always tells me, things will always be better as time goes by. I can even laugh at the Kah Ee diary incident that happened when i was form 2. haha.

And then, I have very very good friends who tried to make plans with me. Thanks you people.

Got a few invitations from those who heard i was spending Christmas alone, but was afraid to go out. Afraid of feeling lonely even with a big crowd around me. Afraid of going to other people's houses, seeing one big family greeting me Merry Christmas warmly. Too bad for me lah. Anyway I wouldn't want to ruin people's jolly spirit by sulking the whole night. Not that selfish, yet.

But I did spend time with Melinda, shopping, eating, karaoke-ing and all. Even if she had her own problems going on, she's been a great company. Thanks Mel. And I think she kinda got
screwed by her parents because i brought her to this one place. So yeah. Sorry doom cookie.

Didn't get any presents this year, so nothing to show off here. I wasn't expecting any anyway.

Christmas is about being together right? Yeah, I realise I should have spend the day with my mom. Cause I am missing her every minute right now.

This year's Christmas is filled with emotions.

I was thinking I must have been a bad girl, that's why I got all this from Santa. And then I thought about it and laugh, I learned so much lah. I think I've been a good girl, this is the best Christmas present I've ever received from the fat guy.

So i prayed silently and said thank you. And I pray you had a great Christmas too. Amen. :D