I know; visions are seldom all they seem

I've been tactfully skirted around that certain sensitive subject. Wandering in circles, trapped, searching for a gap that leads to an escape.

Put the paddle down and jump. Breakaway, because like a shadow over me, you are so very bery heavy. I need to breathe.

Impeccably planned. To push me right to the brim, is it so that if i do not say yes, you'll push and let me fall?

We say the same words, but each held different meanings. Everybody covets for something. I am sorry I couldn't think rasionally. I am sorry I decided to overlook the matter.

So very exasperating. Just because I have this perfect vision of how it's suppose to be. I've been denying all the problems.

I really need to buck up now and say NO. I'm right, rightt? This time it's going to about me and not about you, because it's my life dude. I won't let it trouble my conscience. I won't let guilt eat me alive. Just for your sake.

All I have to do now, is smile, and dream. Just not about youu.

tomorrow is a big day. Kiss me and say good luck.